A FIRST :)

I had never known that a completely unexpected compliment from a completely unexpected person would make me feel so good about myself... I mean, loads of people have given me loads of compliments (I'm sooo modest, na)... but this one probably tops them all... Yay me!!

This one stays with me for a long, long time... maybe for life :)

HERE WITHOUT YOU

She sat quietly in her place while people filed into the room. Most of them were acquaintances, some of them she could put in the category of 'friends' and one of them was among her best buddies. They greeted her cheerfully, called out to her, some even came up to her place to shake hands. She greeted everyone with a slight nod of the head and a smile, a smile which didn't quite reach her eyes. Some of her friends and her best friend crowded around her, making small talk, chattering endlessly. She nodded every now and then to make it seem as if she was listening to them. Meanwhile, her eyes wandered as she searched for an exit route from this melee. As the instructor entered, everyone took their seats, and the class started. Her performance was by far the best, but today, she was strangely detached from her surroundings and work. She felt nothing when the instructor looked at her incredulously, she felt nothing when he praised her and still nothing when he clapped. All she knew was that she had to get out of that class since she was feeling unusually claustrophobic.

She wanted to leave, even though she knew that when she finally stepped out of here, there wouldn't be any respite. There wasn't anywhere special to go, it was just going to be walking out of this claustrophobic room to some other place where she'd feel trapped again. The person who her eyes sought was far away from here, and without that one person, her complete being seemed incomplete…

"I'm here without you, baby", her entire existence called out, "And now, every action of mine will bring me closer… closer to you… "

THE STEPPING STONE

It had been a mistake, I'd always been certain of that... Fate would've favoured me more had I chosen 'The Road Less Travelled', as they put it... But I was sure that like the rest of the mistakes that I've made till today, this one was also not too huge, I wouldn't have to pay too dearly for it and that I'd be able to gloss over it... A little late, maybe, but I'd be able to do it for sure...

But today, a piece of news in the morning (and this was not about my internship :p) made me realise how this mistake was not a mistake... When God had planned it, he had meant it to be a stepping stone, a way for me to realising what I'd always truly wanted... something that I'd not known when I'd made the decision and my 'mistake', but something that I definitely now know to be true... through repeated introspective questioning, answering, loads of real-time situations and their results which I now treat as hard-core, tangible evidence.

It's a stepping stone... And now, it's going to be used as one.

My biggest weakness is that I forgive people too easily... Way too easily...

IN LOVE...

Off late, I'm in love with:

• Dates that taste like chocolates…
• Chocolates that taste nothing like, well, Indian chocolates…
• The hazy mirror in winters that I need to wipe with my bare hands to look at myself…
• 'Weekends'…
• 'Weekends' that stretch into weekdays as well… :)
• Slow, close dances…
• The two pigeons who've converted my window-sill into their permanent shack(They come in the evening, leave early morning and stay huddled together all night for warmth :) )

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 !!

The year 2009 has been an extremely good year for me(personally, that is…), especially towards the end… Things which I wanted since a really, really, reallyyyy long time became a reality… Here's hoping that 2010 too brings a lot of happiness, joy, peace and contentment not just for me and the ones I care about, but for the world at large, who contrary to popular perception, does deserve it…

P.S. Come to think of it, when I look back at the year gone by, there have been disappointments galore and a lot of things which I wanted badly didn’t come through. But my continued bout of optimism makes me want to believe that God is taking care of the bigger picture… So, cheers :)

One Day??

Cameron Diaz in "What Happens in Vegas" before she quits her job:
"I'd rather do nothing and be happy than do something and not be happy..."

I sincerely hope that one day I reach a stage in life where I can make such a statement and get away with it... :)